Enough

I reflect inwardly tonight, as I type these words. I realize I have said some things more than once...."I have had enough", "I am done", "I can't do this anymore", to name a few. Add "I am tired" and "I am worn out" to the list. And as I read these, I realize that by saying those phrases, I have automatically defeated myself before I began. Part of the journey has been finding strength where I thought there was no more. Finding peace amidst the chaos. Finding joy when emerging from the pain. Let me tell you, this is much easier said than done. I pondered the last year, and came to the conclusion that the world has taken enough of me, and it's time to dig deeper than I ever have. It is time to rise and be the warrior God created me to be, not the failure the world is anticipating. I armed myself with God's word, prepared my heart with sincere prayer and repentance, and rose. And it's funny, when His peace and grace aren't hiding behind clouds of doubt, what a person is actually capable of.

We can go to church, raise our hands in praise, and put on a good show, but God is not fooled. He knows us, inside and out, and He isn't afraid to hurt our feelings to put us back on the path we are meant to travel. And this path, this journey that was created just for us, holds no promise of easy. It is hard, and painful, and it takes daily work. And it is training for the days when Satan is in your face, taunting you with fear, and trying to turn you away from the one who holds you close. Lean in, and reach for HIM. Cry if you must, and then LISTEN....when you feel you are alone, close your eyes, and call His name-He is always listening, and waiting eagerly to hear from YOU. 

You are loved. You are worthy. Your life matters.

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