Hanging on!

This week I have been hanging on by a thread....putting that best foot forward, no matter how tired, or frustrated I was. And it's not an easy task, to face your enemy, and be brave. More times than not, we want to back down. But in order to heal, you have to stand, even when your knees are shaking, and your voice is a whisper.
I found myself making some decisions, to eliminate people who are toxic to me, and to my growth as a person. It's not an easy decision to come to, but we have to face the truth. Some things we continue to go back to are bad for us. They keep us on the edge of destruction, and constantly in turmoil. And no one can move forward when they are just treading water.
The first truth to face, is the one where you admit to yourself, that there needs to be change. Once you jump that hurdle, the next one gets a little easier. But if you lie to yourself, and continue the behavior, you will continue to see destructive patterns that send you into depression, loneliness, and anger. Who needs that? NO ONE.
So I trudged on, knowing the journey was not easy, and the path was far from straight. And guess what? I made PROGRESS. I have to much to offer this world to live in self-doubt, and hide in the shadows wishing life was different.
I choose JOY. I choose HAPPY. I choose to be me, even if it means that some days I am flying by the seat of my pants, hoping I made the right choice. I hang on to that thread of hope with both hands, gripping it with all the strength and courage I have. I dig deep, and carry on, because I am a survivor, a warrior and my father's daughter. He didn't make me a quitter, he made me a FIGHTER!!!!! And fight I will.....
I hope you all find your path, find your courage, and find your bravery. Life is never predictable, but the journey is always POSSIBLE!

Hang on, and be brave-we are in this together!

God bless, and much love

Kris

Not myself....

I have lost some pieces lately. Bravery slipped away, and I fell into a dark hole. I smile at the world, but crumble inside. Those who know me well, see that the smile doesn't reach my eyes anymore. The light has dimmed a bit. And tears are a part of daily life.

I share this because someone out there may be feeling the same. And no one should have to feel this way alone.

We all struggle with something, and some are good at hiding it. I am not. I cannot pretend, or be fake. I am who I am. I go into this world as ME every single day, whatever it brings.

So for the last 48 hours, I have stayed in my house, in deafening silence, as tears come and go. It is a battle I will face, and win, because I don't quit. I stumble, I fall, I feel, I go on. I am a warrior, and I will leave a legacy that my children can be proud of. But today, I slipped. I let the heartache be felt. Because you cannot shove feelings down for too long-that destroys you. Piece by piece, and slowly, so you do not notice until you are lost.

I refuse to be lost, or accept that this moment defines me. It does NOT! It means that I am human. I am not perfect. I have flaws. And in this world of pretending, I don't fit. I cannot pretend. If it's pain, I feel it. If it's joy, I share it. I laugh out loud, and cry louder. And I don't regret any of it. My only regret, is putting my trust, giving my friendship, and sharing my soul with those who didn't deserve or EARN IT.

Learn to be stronger, and allow those who are worthy into your world. But also, be strong enough to walk away from those who aren't.

Be brave, and don't give up if you weren't. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to shine, another opportunity to change the world.

Peace and love....

A new dawn.

Bravery firmly in place today!!!

February is here, and life is moving forward-not as fast as I would like sometimes, but I am getting there!
Thoughts for today are about what defines you-and WHO defines you. I don't think a bigger house, or perfect hair is what makes you. God made you. He chose who you would be, and He loves his creation!  So HONOR THAT!!!!

Use the strengths you are given to fuel your brave! Show your compassion, your joy, your honesty. You can do great things in life, without stomping on others, being someone you are not, or stooping below what you were designed to be! Success is not measured by dollars, but by moments. When your smile stays in place, even when you want to scream. When your child becomes an amazing adult. When the tears are flowing, and you're surrounded by darkness, but you keep moving forward. All of these things show that beautiful soul inside of you! And why not share it? Scars, flaws, mistakes.....they don't matter anymore, when you accept them, and keep going-but you have to stop falling into the same patterns. You have to make a CHOICE as to what you want your life to be, and stop pinning your happiness and peace on others

Create your world. Make your peace. Decide what your definition of happy is-and DO THAT.

Bravery begins by facing your true self in the mirror, And then you find what you don't like, and CHANGE IT. You let the tears fall as you let go of what hurts, what eats away at your core....and then you RISE.

Your challenge for today-Face who you are, and what you have done. And then......

LET IT GO.

FIND YOUR KIND OF BRAVE.

God Bless!

Not so Brave today...

My bravery was quite small today. I let the world intimidate and manipulate me a bit. To the point of tears, I am ashamed to say. I let all of the people who want me to fail, get inside my head. And that is a powerful thing to fight! I know that I am stronger than that, but I needed a minute. To let go. To release the pain, and hurt, and heartbreak, and just breathe.
That being said, I want you to know that you are not alone. I feel alone almost every day, even though I am not. We all have things we have to struggle through, and sometimes we aren't quite as graceful as we would like to be. But we make it.
I share this with you, because I think honesty is so very important, in every area of life. If we aren't honest about what we are feeling, how can we get past it? Fix it? Move forward?  WE CAN"T if we are lying to ourselves. And I don't know about you, but I don't do lies. They destroy us, and the people around us. Slowly, and painfully.
So tonight, I am sharing the raw, dirty truth. I am not perfect. I am flawed, and greatly in some areas. But I don't quit. I have a moment now and again, and then I get up and fight harder. Because I don't want to become cold, and hard, and bitter. I want BETTER. There are so many people in my life right now that want me to "toughen up" or "suck it up". And there are those who take advantage of this big sappy heart of mine. But I won't let that change the woman God designed me to be. He made me this way for a reason, and I intend to find out what He has planned for me.

No man, woman, or obstacle is worth giving up. EVER.

Continue to love with all you have, reach for YOUR dreams, and trust that GOD has the plan. Don't let the world decide who you are-YOU DECIDE.  That, my friends, is bravery.

God Bless-my love to you all!