I have lost some pieces lately. Bravery slipped away, and I fell into a dark hole. I smile at the world, but crumble inside. Those who know me well, see that the smile doesn't reach my eyes anymore. The light has dimmed a bit. And tears are a part of daily life.
I share this because someone out there may be feeling the same. And no one should have to feel this way alone.
We all struggle with something, and some are good at hiding it. I am not. I cannot pretend, or be fake. I am who I am. I go into this world as ME every single day, whatever it brings.
So for the last 48 hours, I have stayed in my house, in deafening silence, as tears come and go. It is a battle I will face, and win, because I don't quit. I stumble, I fall, I feel, I go on. I am a warrior, and I will leave a legacy that my children can be proud of. But today, I slipped. I let the heartache be felt. Because you cannot shove feelings down for too long-that destroys you. Piece by piece, and slowly, so you do not notice until you are lost.
I refuse to be lost, or accept that this moment defines me. It does NOT! It means that I am human. I am not perfect. I have flaws. And in this world of pretending, I don't fit. I cannot pretend. If it's pain, I feel it. If it's joy, I share it. I laugh out loud, and cry louder. And I don't regret any of it. My only regret, is putting my trust, giving my friendship, and sharing my soul with those who didn't deserve or EARN IT.
Learn to be stronger, and allow those who are worthy into your world. But also, be strong enough to walk away from those who aren't.
Be brave, and don't give up if you weren't. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to shine, another opportunity to change the world.
Peace and love....
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